Dreams

What is it that makes us dream?  I used to dream alot, they were vivid dreams, some almost waking dreams.  I guess as we get older we don’t remember our dreams as much because we have so much going on in our lives that it overpowers our hidden selves… Ok this is getting deep folks and I have to go to work, don’t need any deep stuff.

Point is, I’ve been dreaming more lately.  I think it’s the elavil.  Or maybe me just wanting more than I have now.  I don’t really know.  I’m unsettled.  I think once I get things cleared out and relocated it will settle down.

MAYBE.

Margarita’s at lunch

OMG!! Put a F in there.  Office Lunch on Friday, followed by BNC, RR and I going to Pepito’s for margarita’s.  This was a most difficult task, I don’t usually do things like skip out on work and go drinking. Sooooooo after several rounds of the liquid based insanity…

ROADTRIP

Ber was in my car, RR in his, I took BNC to hers, she headed home, as myself and  RR…… I showered, grabbed the overnight bag, thew some shit in, RR picked me up around 6, we headed to get BNC.  With BNC picked up, we gassed up the transport, and headed to the casino’s in the NEXT STATE.  I have not drank as much, played slot’s, cut up, stuck my tongue out, petted, stayed up as late, as i did this past halloween night.

Ok, back to reality.

I am, I am not, if I am, I do I want to be?

That’s just it……….. I DON’T KNOW ANYMORE.

I should be in bed, but am I, no.  My brain is not shutting down at all tonight and I need it too.  I need to sleep, I need to stop thinking about things.  There is just too much going on, there is so much I want to do with what life I have left.  BUT….I need numbness right now.  I need everything just to STOP.

So,,,, I figure if I sit here, surf the net for a few things, I’ll just get so fricking brain tired that I will barely make it to my bed…….. fall in and pass out.

hopefully, maybe,

NOT.

Rethinking some things

Over the next few months, I’ll be making a big change.  I’ve got to catch up on things.  Get myself out from under this mound of stress.  The “BC” (big change) will be rather drastic for a few months, but in doing so I’ll be able to secure a few things I want (not need mind you, but want). I should be able to get ahead on the car payments and get a few other nit pick shit bills out of the way.  this will mean giving up a lot of myself and my space, but I can’t do this alone anymore.  So the BC?  ditching the apartment, the bills that go with it and moving in with my Mom. YIKES.

With that said, I WANT TO GO TO IRELAND. And if I should go, I’ll not be coming back.   That has nothing to do with the BC.

I’ve been knitting a good bit with not much to show for it.  I actually need to get something FINISHED for a change.

WEEKEND

This has been the longest feeling frickin annoying busy boring drag ass week I’ve had in a long time.

I really should do a bit more blogging, it’s good for the mental health.

SCA stuff.  Our group, Okeborne Keep, is Co-hosting Meridies Crown List . Fun stuff.  Will be the first SCA event I’ve been too in a while.

I’m going to spend the weekend doing some cleaing out and a bit of knitting.  Actually, more knitting than cleaning.

Lots and nothing at the same time

What’s up blog world? I’m still alive and treading water…. Things are rough trying to keep my head above water. Everything has gone up, gas, food, EXCEPT my paycheck and it won’t this year. I’m not able to get a 2nd job, one is about all I can handle with the MS.

My SCA adventures are on hold for now. There are a few events “local”, HAHAHA, our little SCA group is co-hosting Fall Crown List. Oh Joy.

I’ve become totally obsessed with knitting and fiber. I’ve got a bit of a plan to knit some crimson and white bookmarks and sell them to the football obsessed morons on campus. HAHAHA.

I’ve added a new link to the left, Garden Girl TV. This woman is totally inspiring. You should really check it out. You too can have fresh, picked them yourself veggies in the middle of the city. She grows most of her own food, raises angora rabbits and spins their fur… that totally rocks.

Gotta go knit something, it’s frickin addictive… geeze.

Ready for some warmth

OMG, it is not time for winter weather to just  GO AWAY.

I really don’t mind the cold, what I mind is the frickin increase in my gas heating bill.  Like that alone is not enough, everything is going up, auto gas, groceries, just damn well everything.
I don’t really feel good these days.  The MS is just doing freaky things to me, all hard to explain.

BLAH

Acronyms

Be it internet (WTF) or otherwise (DOA), the ones that annoy me the most are Military.  I had a bit of a “Britney”  moment at work yesterday.  I am a civilian, a university employee, I will NEVER learn, nor care what MRE (although I do know what that one means, doesn’t everyone?), OER, or any of the other countless ones.  If you want the damn piece of paper ask for it by full name.  The only thing an asking for it by acronym does is piss me off.

Heh heh, “Britney” moment.  Remember how “going postal” was a thing years ago, used to describe someone who was going over the edge mentally?  Well, I’ve decided to GO BRITNEY!!  YEA, I don’t want to get violent, or shoot things up, I just want to be totally irrational and blubbering.   Do things without care or thought of what may happen.

Saturday will be a trip to Convivium Collegialis.  Will do me good to spend time with SCA folks learning new things.

My current obsession  is knitting, lace type specifically. Like I really needed to learn something else that uses string/yarn/yada yada yada.

Roadtrips

One of my students  requested “roadtrip” suggestions.

Let me tell you about “roadtrips” darlin.
MaryAnne, a “trouble” buddy of mine, got bored with Tuscaloosa.  (Now mind you this was in the Urban Cowboy days) Sooooo we got in her little red VW Bug (old school bug), and headed to Gilley’s, in Texas, via Slidell LA and LSU’s camus.  While stopped in Slidell, we found a country bar, changed clothes in the parking lot and went in for a bit.  We drove through LSU’s campus around 3 am with windows rolled down yelling ROLL TIDE. (and we lived to tell about it) Then on to Gilley’s. Well, we got their early afternoon. Went in, looked around, a nice older couple started up a conversation.  He was a cross country truck driver and this was their 25th wedding anniversary.  We told them we just kinda ended up there on a whim.  Ok, now looking back this is where it gets “stupid”. They invited us back to their hotel room to shower and change, then we all went to dinner at this Mexican place, then we all went back to Gilley’s.  There was a $3 cover charge and FREE beer, as long as you drank the house beer.  Like whatever, LOL.
We danced and danced, I managed to bust my ass to cotton eyed joe.  We were totally nuts out there, figuring no one knew us………WRONG……these 2 guys come over to us and say “hey, we know ya’ll from Cowboy (THE place to hang out way back in my day) in Tuscaloosa… DAMN.
Okay, next day we head back to Tuscaloosa.   Somewhere,someone has a picture of me riding the bull at Gilley’s.

Roadtrips are so much FUN!~!

The Office Christmas Party

It’s actually a “lunch” with “gift exchange”.  Twas fun none the less.  This year the Air Force ROTC personnel joined us.   Along with the most excellent lunch, we played “dirty santa” for our gift exchange.  I was most pleased with my prize, a bottle of wine, hazelnut coffee and a good amount of Dark Chocolate.  And is proper with any holiday party, there was “eggnog” , proper eggnog at that.  A most excellent mix of the eggnog and a fine whiskey. Me gots a bit tipsy, LOL. I have NEVER in all my working years “drank” on the job, not even a beer at lunch!!!  Nice way to end the work year.
I’ll go into the office for a few hours tomorrow, then I’m off till Jan 2!!!!